Recently, I relapsed and overdosed on SHAME, DOUBT, Self-CRITICISM. At times, I tried to stop the thoughts and feelings of inadequacy from overflowing, but, it overpowered me and left me defeated. This internal tug of war began to play on my Psyche as I slowly began to entertain the idea (s) that maybe “I’m unlovable”, “will I truly become successful? or fulfill my dreams?” ,“maybe, I should just give up”, and etc. In that TEMPORARY moment of despair, it’s was easy to get tangled up in fear that dimmed my personal outlook on life. Which can seem like there’s no hope, perpetual feelings of emptiness, or nagging thoughts of “ I’m not enough”.
Thankfully, a little still voice snapped me out of my “train of thought”. I’m grateful for “random” encouraging texts/emails, social media posts, laughter of a child, unexpected surprises, and music as a friendly reminder of who I AM!
Sometimes, series of disappointments or seemingly rejections has the potential to make the heart grow weary, if you allow it. When you are in the right head space, one can see “failure” as an opportunity for growth. Sometimes, certain shake ups or abrupt changes occur to get your ATTENTION to WAKE UP! RUDE AWAKENINGS can seem really scary in the moment and is an indication for CHANGE. YOU may be being nudged to move out of your comfort zone to EXPAND🕊, to grow 🌱DEEPER, and EVOLVE in L💗VE. TRANSFORMATION is a prerequisite for GROWTH. Your natural tendency is to resist & the fear of change can make you feel like your W🌎RLD is falling apart, when actually, it can be falling into place.
During my relapse, I was only seeing things ONE way, however, I learned a deeper meaning. When I remembered who "I AM", it SHIFTED my perspective. Though, my immediate circumstance didn’t change, I gained a different meaning to my of my situation.
Overall lesson, when you feel triggered (emotional), it’s your unconscious mind trying to get your attention. It wants you to become aware of something. Possibly an old pattern that is no longer serving you.
✨To recover from a emotional relapse, allow yourself to feel your feelings (don’t stay there too long)
✨ Explore/Assess it those thoughts and feelings are true about you
✨ Change your story